Woah. I pretty hate this kind of feeling ): is damn such a Sad, Tired, Uncontrollable feeling, Pain, Irritating feeling, Disappointing. Sometime, i just hate myself. Sometime, i just love myself. I hate to be alone at night. When no one is here to talk to me. Concern me. Love me. Care for me. I love being crowded. I love the way when i used to crapz out all my craps and laugh the way i can. During the night, i always stand alone. I always wanted to wait for someone. And becuz, waiting is killing. So i didn't wait and i paused for a moment & thought over it. In my life, i'm waiting for a right guy to appear here. And this guy, should have another broken heart of mine. I believe, one fine day we will put each of our broken heart together. And this heart is belong to us. The one and only. No one can take it away. No one can replace any one if us. This heart, is fated and meant for us. (I can't imagine how my life is w/o you.) And during the day, i'm always a 'bz girl'. I always have my hp beside me and i will text for non stop, and it will just continue & continue till i'm sicko tired of it.

Sometime, i very-the dislike myself for being too *crazy*. Caring my friends. And hacking care my loves and like ones. I'm just being too selfish. I know that please. Many many times, at home. When i did 'something' wrong. I don't admit and i just continue joke and laugh. Is my fault please. I didn't meant to do that. I really know is my fault. But just that, i don't like it if i apologize in a properly manner. So sometime, i just pretend to say sorry to someone but actually was referring to someone my mind is thinking of.


Yeah i forgot what is this feeling.. What's that when your heart feels so sad, your chest tightens, and you're out of breath?


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Ha ha ha, yes. I spammed smses him for more like 100++++ (each + is stand for 10) already. And is like within 4hours. Coolz ok! I'm doing it so, cuz superblur said 'Today afternoon (which mean yesterday), i did something', you make a guess. I say okay, and i was making trying thinking guessing. I guessed three or so and it was wrong? And he texted me, 'I going sleep ler, goodnight blahblah' LULZ. I haven't guess finish! ): He slept. And i was still making guesses. And I thought of, making a first 100th guesses and if is still wrong, he MUST TELL out by tomorrow morning when he first woke up. So i spammed him with my guessing answer, damn coolz. I cracked my brain for him \m/, he must he proud. First person i ever cracked until like this._. And now, i think i shall get some sleep and then tomorrow be prepared with his answer. :B


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Awwwww, arghhh, sobz ): My damn left ear is damn pain now. Stupidmelolwth. I should have put "them" earlier on then now suffering the pain. LULZ. Is damn hard to squeeze in the holes. And for my mothergodlala, once when i put in the hole, my ear kinda numb or something? Is damn f pain when i squeeze in the hole okay! My ear holes is like completely CLOSE? Only left the "dot" which i can slowly squeeze in. I'm great. I manage to "squeeze" in! \m/ rockzlahzcooolz.


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When I saw you I was afraid to meet you. When I met you I was afraid to kiss you. When I kissed you I was afraid to love you. Now that I love you, I am afraid to lose you.

The ones that you love the most are usually the ones that hurt you the most.

If you love someone you would be willing to give up everything for them, but if they loved you back theyd never ask you to.

If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, its yours forever. If it dosent, then it was never meant to be.

When you are in Love you can't fall asleep because reality is better than your dreams.

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YES, i am tired now and i can't sleep. Is pretty 4.51am and nearly 5. And i'm fb-ing and doing nothing): I ain't happy or sad. Is just feeling bored. Idk what to make me to fell asleep. There is no show to watch. There is no music i want to listen. There is nobody i am keen to chat with. Is just nothing=.= It has been 12hours i'm awaking, and plus ytd i didn't sleep cuz tonned outside/stephanie's house. Is pretty fun. Playing with her damn webcam. :) Actually i got mine but don't know where? Lulz. It's such a lame thing can!? I got one laptop for so long and i don't even know that there is such a program. I'm eggcited, i'm eggcited. I'm eggcited, idk why? I want to sleep. I wanna go to my dreamland^^

Okayz, me me me me me me me me always always always always wonder wonder wonder wonder when when when when can can can can can i i i i i i i get get get get get a a a a a a full full full full time time time time time job job job job job lulz lulz lulz lulz sickening sickening sickening sickening and why why why why why why please please please please please please please help help help help help me me me me me me me me me me fuck fuck fuck fuck you you you you you HA HA HA HA HA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I. WANNA. A. FULL TIME. JOB ):


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Sometimes, i get moody for nothing? And when i thought back, i felt is quite silly after all. Regretting what i did and thought of. Being too sensitive isn't a good thing i like about. Being confident is what i love about.


Currently mood: Happy + Excited.


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Life is true bored. Whenever i got this mixed feeling, i feel like leaving this earth and going somewhere far. I Really Damn Hate This Feeling. I. REALLY. HATE. ): It makes me think of leaving here and go somewhere far, when i can see my "grandpa, grandma, great-grandpa, great-grandma" and more. I wish to get a new life. A new hope. Something which turn me completely new. I wish to make new friends, in new world.

For more, i can't keep on continue chatting with a same person i used to chat with or i fall for him. I finallly understood missing someone is really hurt.


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Woah. I pretty hate this kind of feeling ): is damn such a Sad, Tired, Uncontrollable feeling, Pain, Irritating feeling, Disappointing. Sometime, i just hate myself. Sometime, i just love myself. I hate to be alone at night. When no one is here to talk to me. Concern me. Love me. Care for me. I love being crowded. I love the way when i used to crapz out all my craps and laugh the way i can. During the night, i always stand alone. I always wanted to wait for someone. And becuz, waiting is killing. So i didn't wait and i paused for a moment & thought over it. In my life, i'm waiting for a right guy to appear here. And this guy, should have another broken heart of mine. I believe, one fine day we will put each of our broken heart together. And this heart is belong to us. The one and only. No one can take it away. No one can replace any one if us. This heart, is fated and meant for us. (I can't imagine how my life is w/o you.) And during the day, i'm always a 'bz girl'. I always have my hp beside me and i will text for non stop, and it will just continue & continue till i'm sicko tired of it.

Sometime, i very-the dislike myself for being too *crazy*. Caring my friends. And hacking care my loves and like ones. I'm just being too selfish. I know that please. Many many times, at home. When i did 'something' wrong. I don't admit and i just continue joke and laugh. Is my fault please. I didn't meant to do that. I really know is my fault. But just that, i don't like it if i apologize in a properly manner. So sometime, i just pretend to say sorry to someone but actually was referring to someone my mind is thinking of.


Yeah i forgot what is this feeling.. What's that when your heart feels so sad, your chest tightens, and you're out of breath?


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Ha ha ha, yes. I spammed smses him for more like 100++++ (each + is stand for 10) already. And is like within 4hours. Coolz ok! I'm doing it so, cuz superblur said 'Today afternoon (which mean yesterday), i did something', you make a guess. I say okay, and i was making trying thinking guessing. I guessed three or so and it was wrong? And he texted me, 'I going sleep ler, goodnight blahblah' LULZ. I haven't guess finish! ): He slept. And i was still making guesses. And I thought of, making a first 100th guesses and if is still wrong, he MUST TELL out by tomorrow morning when he first woke up. So i spammed him with my guessing answer, damn coolz. I cracked my brain for him \m/, he must he proud. First person i ever cracked until like this._. And now, i think i shall get some sleep and then tomorrow be prepared with his answer. :B


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Awwwww, arghhh, sobz ): My damn left ear is damn pain now. Stupidmelolwth. I should have put "them" earlier on then now suffering the pain. LULZ. Is damn hard to squeeze in the holes. And for my mothergodlala, once when i put in the hole, my ear kinda numb or something? Is damn f pain when i squeeze in the hole okay! My ear holes is like completely CLOSE? Only left the "dot" which i can slowly squeeze in. I'm great. I manage to "squeeze" in! \m/ rockzlahzcooolz.


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When I saw you I was afraid to meet you. When I met you I was afraid to kiss you. When I kissed you I was afraid to love you. Now that I love you, I am afraid to lose you.

The ones that you love the most are usually the ones that hurt you the most.

If you love someone you would be willing to give up everything for them, but if they loved you back theyd never ask you to.

If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, its yours forever. If it dosent, then it was never meant to be.

When you are in Love you can't fall asleep because reality is better than your dreams.

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YES, i am tired now and i can't sleep. Is pretty 4.51am and nearly 5. And i'm fb-ing and doing nothing): I ain't happy or sad. Is just feeling bored. Idk what to make me to fell asleep. There is no show to watch. There is no music i want to listen. There is nobody i am keen to chat with. Is just nothing=.= It has been 12hours i'm awaking, and plus ytd i didn't sleep cuz tonned outside/stephanie's house. Is pretty fun. Playing with her damn webcam. :) Actually i got mine but don't know where? Lulz. It's such a lame thing can!? I got one laptop for so long and i don't even know that there is such a program. I'm eggcited, i'm eggcited. I'm eggcited, idk why? I want to sleep. I wanna go to my dreamland^^

Okayz, me me me me me me me me always always always always wonder wonder wonder wonder when when when when can can can can can i i i i i i i get get get get get a a a a a a full full full full time time time time time job job job job job lulz lulz lulz lulz sickening sickening sickening sickening and why why why why why why please please please please please please please help help help help help me me me me me me me me me me fuck fuck fuck fuck you you you you you HA HA HA HA HA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I. WANNA. A. FULL TIME. JOB ):


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Sometimes, i get moody for nothing? And when i thought back, i felt is quite silly after all. Regretting what i did and thought of. Being too sensitive isn't a good thing i like about. Being confident is what i love about.


Currently mood: Happy + Excited.


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Life is true bored. Whenever i got this mixed feeling, i feel like leaving this earth and going somewhere far. I Really Damn Hate This Feeling. I. REALLY. HATE. ): It makes me think of leaving here and go somewhere far, when i can see my "grandpa, grandma, great-grandpa, great-grandma" and more. I wish to get a new life. A new hope. Something which turn me completely new. I wish to make new friends, in new world.

For more, i can't keep on continue chatting with a same person i used to chat with or i fall for him. I finallly understood missing someone is really hurt.


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Archives November 2009